Men go abroad to wonder at the heights of mountains, at the huge waves of the sea, at the long courses of the rivers, at the vast compass of the ocean, at the circular motion of the starts, and they pass themselves without wondering.
St. Augustine
I have been doing a lot of research. I began my blog as a way to get my thoughts out of my head. I wanted–I needed–to share my life stories and experiences. To me, this has felt as though I am back in some type of new therapy. Alone. Bouncing thoughts, ideas, and memories on and off the papers I have scattered around me. I have pages saved, pages tossed, pages where question marks abound, and pages that give me pause–I shake my head and wonder how I had survived?
The focal point of my research has been women writers. Women writing about writing and women writing about their lives–their memoirs. I love my little local library and I visited it earlier this week. A book caught my eye as I walked in, the woman on the cover vaguely familiar. I thought, hey, cool, a new memoir. I grabbed it. I was in for a treat and some direction for my own writing.
Grace Notes by Katey Sagal won my heart and soul. So many of the things she writes about prick long-buried memories of my own. Isn’t that what it’s all about, though? Sharing and helping each other through this journey called life?
Her book is arranged in “snippets” and they are simply lovely. She had me from the prologue on. Here is a collection of lines from the prologue:
I am getting older.
It is time to write things down…
…I need to start now.
Because getting older makes me think a lot about the end…
…My keen sense of knowing that this amazing life I have could end at any time is a fucking pain in the ass. Seriously.
And it is always on my mind…
…In other words, I have the time.
Time to write.
I can sit still now…
…I now feel more grounded in the center of myself, with no desire for overstimulation or permission needed to wallow in wherever I am.
To be myself…
She had me captured–word by word, line by line, chapter by chapter. The final chapter came quickly and here are a few of her thoughts from there:
…Like everything I do, I wanted to keep my writing to myself and share it, both at the same time…
…along the way, I have struggled with the vulnerability that these “notes” of mine have brought up.
Am I brave? Am I egotistical?
…I have set myself up for attention, and true to form, I’m not sure I want it…”
Katey’s notes–snippets–were encouraging, comforting, and enlightening to me. Thank you, Katey Sagal. You were a wonderful addition to my small little group therapy session.
I am…
B…simply being…
Peace.
B...simply being... 